Archive for July 26th, 2008

Today I watched an actually quite good film “Becoming Jane”. Overall the film was a moving, period film about Jane Austin and explains how she became “Jane Austin”. By that I mean how she was able to write such great love stories…why you ask? It’s because she never got the ending she wanted in life. She, a good person, did not get her life’s desire. But it’s entirely her fault.

Jane could of had the man she loved but if chose her then his reputation would be ruined and his financial means would vanish. Now the two through their love were determined to overcome this problem but here in lies the other problem. Her man was providing for his mother and many half brothers and sisters If he choose Jane then his entire family would suffer and Jane was convinced under this pressure and gloom their love would die too. So what does she do? She leaves him and never marries but becomes the world’s leading romantic novelist to this day.

Could you do that? Honestly I think I’ve given enough of myself and would have been selfish. In the end, no one was happy. They were still in love even though he married another woman and named his eldest daughter Jane and got an amazing career. Deep down though he still pined for her and she for him. Exactly what was the point? Is it better to love from afar than to never have that love?

I believe in life you have two choices. One you can live your life without failing in love but suffer from the loneliness and eventually jealousy you will have toward those you have found love and happiness. The loneliness can kill you and in history it has done exactly that. Having the feeling that you are entirely alone in this world leaves one completely empty and can turn you cold.

On the other hand you can fall in love which is marvelous if it lasts but what if it doesn’t? You crave for someone to tell you that they want you, desire you, love you, wants you around and then they take that away. You’re left with sometimes anger, other times sorrow, but it all winds up to be heart break and of course loneliness. The pain from this can envelop you and overtake your world. Sometimes you can feel it through your entire body until you can no longer breath – it’s crushing.

So what’s better? To know that love, that feeling of completing another person or meeting someone you connect with in every sense of the word or protecting your heart and staying alone? Honestly they both lead to loneliness and w/o love there will be no inspiration for art, poetry, films, TV, literature etc. Though you can be crushed….it’s always better to feel…something.