Archive for August 9th, 2008

Every so often I run into this little, ok not really little, problem. No, not that problem. I get restless and sometimes I can pinpoint what’s going on which is forcing me to feel restless but other times I’ve really got nothing. I am so very bored w/my life that I want to run screaming naked down my street. That would be a very, very bad thing to do. I cannot figure out how to fix this not so little issue. I’m not sure traveling would solve it and there’s nothing really wrong with my job but I’m soo bored. I’m even being more social and going out quite a bit but nope still restless. Plus I tend to be a bit ADD which is not helping with this aggravating problem. BTW how many times do you think I can use the word, “problem” in this post? I dare you to count.

What to do? I think partly it’s from not having closure with a few past relationships which applies to any type of relationship not just the romantical kind. I have this nagging issue where if things are over with a person and I truly know that they are over but haven’t gotten that lovely luxury of having one final conversation with that person, it will take me FOREVER to just let the whole thing rest in peace. When I get that conversation all questions are answered and we can both just be on our merry ways. But pls keep in mind that I do not seek this conversation out until I’m doing sad, pathetic acts of desperation. I AM NOT THAT GIRL! I strictly live with the idea that no matter what I can walk out with my dignity. I say that instead of pride because being too proud can keep you from working things out and moving forward. Urgh people…..we have to have each other because without pain you will never know happiness which is very true but does there have to be so much pain before the happiness?