Honestly I really just felt the need to add a post….I’m sitting on my couch, wishing my sort throat wasn’t sore anymore and very tried. I need to go to sleep because tomorrow I’m suppose to help my two friends move in together. I’ve managed to punk out of 2 of their previous moves so I really need to do my part this time. Sigh. Really wish I felt better cause it’s the VMA’s this weekend and I should be out getting drunk w/ celebrities, but instead I worked then came home.

Last weekend I was able to go visit my BFF in Chicago and it was heaven. Her family is like my other family and I always just get to relax and chill out when I’m there. I leave all the problems in LA and just get to play with her 2 year old son and get fed lots of yummy food. Plus there’s the magic day bed. She had this bed in college and I used to sleep in her room during the day cause she got a breeze. now the bed is in the guest room and I always sleep like a baby in it. It’s amazing! I was having soo many problems with sleep before I left that I had tried several drugs and doctors. I’m trying to become more active, mostly cause I’m becoming a blob and I need to get physically exhausted as well as mentally.

Work isn’t stressing me out but my personal life is a bit. I feel stuck. Like I’m not moving anywhere. I never thought at this point in my life this is where I’d be but here I am and rather than except this shit I’m trying to fight it. I really have to find a new job soon and i’m trying to find a job which involves working with bands. I really want to combine TV, online, and music. I think it would be perfect for my new obsession with finding new music, the limitless possibilities of the Internet, and TV aspect is my fantastic ability to interview people. Never thought I ‘d be good at it but I am and now is the time to use this shit. I want a change…what I’d love is to get hired to be a band’s videographer and go on tour with them. I’d gladly put my shit in storage and take off for awhile. Sounds like a great adventure for me. I need a new adventure and one which doesn’t cost me thousands.

I’m also considering dating someone…yep that’s a new one for me. I’m not even sure I totally like this person or am just bored and am willing to take the chance. I haven’t totally decided yet and am hoping that next week we can just “run into” each other while out. Hey the one you want can’t get their shit together you have to go out and find someone new. I think I’m more than ready for this to happen…ok it’s taken a bit cause I haven’t found anyone I even remotely wanted to date but I might have now…….