For some people the hardest thing to say is “Hello.” aka: come into my life. Add to it, change it, open me up and get to know me. For others the hardest thing to say is “good bye”. Two very simple words that no matter what will change your life. Whether it be in a huge, permanent way or in the tiniest way that changes you without you even realizing it. Then there’s the in between. The good bye’s you aren’t forced to admit but know they are happening, cannot change it, and then take awhile to finally say those words, mean those two words, and accept those two words. It can feel like you’re completely breaking and it can be very painful but one day you just out of the blue realize you have to say them to yourself and then in some way to the other person.

I wish I could say I’ve reached that point. I want to be at that point but I’m not there. So I push forward, hoping that day comes soon, praying it comes soon. Because the other person is not coming back. They no longer want me in their life so therefore I must say good bye to them in mine. Not there yet…….

2 A.M
Snow falls on the city
white on white
It’s the color of hope
on an unforgiving night
you kissed me into ruins
sin on sin
now i’ve gotta love your love letters
written on my skin

CHORUS:

I can’t tell the stars from the downtown lights
If i said I was truly over you
my heart would say amen
but I’d give in to the cold caress of 2 am.
If I admit I can’t get used to this
will my heart break again?
as i fall into the waiting arms of 2 AM

VERSE 2:

someone’s scratchy music through the walls.
sirens weavin’ thru the streets
i must have missed your call
gathering up these nights
black on black
i know your voice like it’s my own
and it makes my heart go slack

CHORUS:

I can’t tell the stars
From the downtown lights

If I said I was truly over you
My heart would say amen
But I give in to the cold caress of 2 AM
If I admit I can’t get used to this
Will my heart break again?
As I fall
Into the waiting arms of 2 AM

Oh
If I said I was truly over you
My heart would say amen
But I give in to the cold caress of 2 AM
If I admit I can’t get used to this
Will my heart break again?
As I fall
Into the waiting arms of 2 AM
Of 2 AM

**I’m working on bringing the funny back…..